My Soliloquy

I totally just wrote a blog and then decided that since I couldn’t actually write what I’m want to, that there was really no point to my writing at all. I write blogs because I’m bored and I deeply enjoy typing. I can never write what I really feel in a blog (that’s why I have a prayer journal) and so I write bored nonsense in a blog.
Right now I’m sitting in my room waiting for “Dorm Warm” to start and wondering why I’m even here since I’m not really in a mood to hang out with people, and I know that I won’t really be missed if I leave. With that in mind I don’t think I’ll stay very long unless a miracle happens and I really start enjoying myself ( wow am I a positive thinker or what) Not that I don’t think I miracle would happen, or that I wouldn’t want one to happen, but I’m read a situation, but my history book, which doesn’t hold too many social miracles thus far. Yeah, I’m really just not much of a social person. I like people most of the time, but I don’t fit in, and I get tired of being on the outside of the circle. Someone on the inside might look at me and say “come on in” but someone on the inside is not capable of understanding the person on the outside. I am not capable of just stepping into a circle. I have nothing to say to those in the circle, and so when I step in I just end up stepping right back out because I have nothing to add to the circle. What I need to do is find other outsiders and make a square, no make that a triangle I like those more. Yes, I shall make triangles. So if there is anyone out there who knows what I’m talking about, and also likes triangles, lets form triangles together.
And now I must go. Huh I ended up making a blog after all. Yup i was bored.

Things that we hear often tend to become cliche but “He has risen” should never become so. I’m so excited that today is Easter. I’ve come to really love this day; just being able to focus on what it represent, and all Christ has done for me. There really aren’t words to express the significance that this day represents. I cannot even grasp it in my mind. The thought of the empty tomb just gives me holy goosebumps : )
It’s funny that ‘empty’ is not a good thing in just about any circumstance. My youth pastor brought this up last wednesday, how empty gas tanks and starbucks cards really suck, but the empty tomb is our greatest reason for celebration. The tomb is not just empty on Easter Sunday though, it is always empty, so we should always be celebrating the hope this emptiness. This emptiness represents the fulfillment of history, and of love. This emptiness is the greatest victory of all and because of it we are free and also share in this victory. Praise the Lord for all He has done, and for the victory that He has and gives to us. Thank you Jesus!!!!!!!!!

I don’t know why I even bother to write blogs because the only people who ever read them are my sisters, but hey I like to type, so I will continue to write these dumb blogs. With that said….Hello Tami and Jenny my amazing sisters : )

I love Saturdays. I really don’t like the rest of the week because I have to go to school, but Saturdays I get to sleep in (in my own bed) and normally spend the day at home (which I really do enjoy) or perhaps go out for a bit with Tami and get some coffee. Anyway today was just another nice and laid back Saturday, and I quite enjoyed it. Sadly the day is coming to an end and I have to go back to school tomorrow, and that is a depressing thought, but in six weeks I will be home for the summer. It will not come too soon.
Random thought:
So when I type notes or a paper I very often hit control ’s’ to save my work. Well the other day I was sitting in counseling class and I had this odd desire to hit control ’s’ It was odd because my notes in that class are written by hand, but I still felt I needed to press control ’s’ to save my work. I’ve had this random desire several different times this semester and it amuses me each time. Oh how technology affects the mind. Ha.