My Soliloquy

When you hear the term Pro-life what comes to your mind?  Everyone seems to have a fervent opinion on this topic, but regardless of what your opinion happens to be I want to put this question to you… what exactly does it mean to be Pro-life? 

By today’s standards this means that you believe it is wrong to terminate a pregnancy because it is killing a child. Now my “beliefs” stand by this. I believe abortion is wrong, plain and simple. But I’m not actually talking about abortion in this blog, but I’m talking about life; about truly being pro-life. I believe that if we only stand the for the protection of the lives of the unborn then we are actually just pro-infants, and not necessarily pro-life. 

So what do I think it means to be pro-life? Well what is life exactly?  Is life just waking and sleeping, eating and drinking, going through trials and joy, or is there more to it that that? Perhaps life is more about community and relationships. Essentially that is what God made us for, to commune with Him and each other; to love.But there are many out there who are not giving or receiving the love they need.

Who is living life more, the one in the mansion gluttonous and alone, or the one on the streets hungry and alone? Who is doing the better job the corporate alcoholic on the verge of a divorce, or the single mom who can’t catch a break, who has to sell herself to feed her children? Who’s the better person, the popular cheerleader who is wrapped up in herself, or the gay philanthropist  who has never been accepted? What if we have a person with a perfect life yet who still feels something is missing? Juxtaposing all these people who do you think has the best life; who is living? Well you might say they are all living, but I would not agree. You might say that the last person is the one living life the best, but again I would not agree. None of these people are truly alive. They go through the motions, or necessities of life, but not one knows what it means to live. Every one of them is missing something, and every one of them is in need of love.

 I think that being pro-life is being pro-love. It’s not all about saving the physical heart beat, but saving what makes a persons heart live. Ultimately it takes knowing God for someone to fully live, but the lives of everyone can be improved if they experience genuine love. And genuine love is Christ’s love. It’s accepting people where they are at, and helping them where they have need. This to me is what it truly means to be pro-life. 

I think that the people out there who spend so much time up in arms about saving the lives of unborn babies should not ignore the lives of the people who are already breathing; who are actually on the way to losing their lives forever. Yes, stand up for those who can’t speak for themselves, but don’t ignore those who have been silenced by the judgments of this world. Everyone deserves the chance to be loved and to live.  Life is valuable, and eternal, and people need to be loved into eternal life with God, not left alone to continue their paths to destruction. If you love a soul you might really save a life.

I myself have not done a good time at this yet, but I aim to.

Today I was talking to my pastor about life, specifically about the topics of my moving, and my financial situation. I was telling of how I’ve been working like crazy but am still really far from having the money I need, and that I found out I have the added need of new tires for my car. I really had no idea how I was going to pay for the tires. Well when I was saying all this my churches bookkeeper overheard, and said that she would buy my tires. Dude I totally started crying, which made me feel lame, but I couldn’t help it. At least because I cried she knows how much it means to me right. 

I had been praying all week about needing new tires, and last night I was really feeling stressed over money, but I just gave it to God once again, and today He provided. I’ve never really had His provision happen like that before though, so I was kinda shocked when it happened. God is so amazingly faithful, and I hope I can recall this time of provision whenever I face a need.

I just thought I’d share what happened to me at work today. So I was doing my custodial job today, working hard and everything. Well when I was scrubbing dirty goo off of doors I squirted the Goo Off Spray and it splashed off the door and into my right eye. Dang did it start burning. I read the back of the bottle with my left eye, and and it said to flush out I immediately and then seek medical attention. I know that all chemical solutions say that on them, but when your eye is burning out of your face, it’s easy to freak out and picture yourself going blind. And going blind my cleaning chemical is not at all romantic. Your suppose to go blind from like a life threatening disease, not from a spray bottle.

Needless to say I was quite concerned, though I did keep my cool. I asked how best to flush out my eye, and proceeded to do that for a very long time, and it was not fun. Anyway it seems to have worked just fine, and I’m happy to report that my eye is doing just fine. It’s not even red. 

And that is my story.

School is going to be starting again soon, and I was in need of a place to live during school. I lived in the dorms on campus last year, but really didn’t want to this year, not to mention I didn’t have the money to pay for it. So I was starting to get a little worried, well not quite worried, but I really did want to know that I had a place to live. The only idea I could come up with was to ask if I could stay with my father because he’s the person I know that lives closest to my school.

When I saw my dad the other day I asked him about it and he said that he’d actually been thinking the same thing, which was a huge relief to me. I’m pretty excited about the whole thing. I’ve never lived with my dad, and I think it’s going to be a good experience. We’ve never been very close, but I think this will be the best opportunity to get to know him and my step mom. I’m curious as to how it’s all going to work out, but I’m trusting that God is going to be with me, and help me to be His light in this home.