The Centerless Magnet
I have a new, and in my opinion, an unfortunate challenge that I now have to figure out how to overcome. My brother-in-law just got a temporary job working at this great little bakery in my town. Now this doesn’t sound like it would be a bad thing because jobs are an essential thing to have, but I do have a problem with this job. DONUTS. Yes, donuts. Free, and plentiful. My brother-in-law brings home pastries and breads nearly every time he works. My biggest downfall is definitely the donuts though. I just don’t know how to stay away from them. (haha stupid joke…I do-nut know how to stay away from them: )
Just now I had a piece of an amazing donut covered in chocolate and coconut, plus I had some of a maple bar which is my favorite. I just can’t stay away from the donuts. It’s like they are calling out to me, but I feel so guilty once I eat them.
Now I’m not food phobic anymore. I enjoy eating, and treating myself to sweet things, but the problem is now I eat donuts all the time. I just love donuts, or at least these donuts because they aren’t full of preservatives, and such, and have a great taste. Ugh, what am I going to do. I can’t let the donuts get the better of me. I will be the victor. I shall activate my will power. I will resist the magnetic like pull of the maple bar, and the inviting smell the centerless circle wonder.
Gutter Ball
Okay so the first thing I’ve done this “summer,” aside from reading of course, is going to a ten year olds birthday party at a bowling alley. I hadn’t bowl in probably over five years, but today I did it again, and discovered that I SUCK : ) And when I say suck I don’t mean I bowled like a hundred, no I bowled…well less than that. Actually, it was just the full game I bowled that I did real bad at, but when I was jsut free bowling I actually did pretty….OK. I ended up getting a few strikes, but of course not when it counted. Even though I really do stink at bowling I enjoy it a lot. I wish I got to do it more often so that I wouldn’t suck so badly. You know it’s pretty embarrassing when a bunch of little kids are bowling a lot better than you, but hey whatever, I can drive and they can’t : )
So anyway I had a pretty good time at the party, and am looking forward to the next time I get to go bowling….even though my wrists isn’t feeling too great. So I will never be a professional bowler, but that doesn’t sound like a very fulfilling career anyway. I wonder if I could be a professional Guitar Hero player. Now that sounds like fun (can you guess what game I’m currently waiting my turn for?) Okay, so neither of those careers would be a very good choice. I’ll just stick to my current career ideas, and leave bowling and GH for my pass times.
On Boy Meets Girl
I just finished reading an amazing book titled Boy Meets Girl. It’s a book on the topic of courtship, written by Joshua Harris. It’s a great book and I HIGHLY recommend it to anyone who has a desire for a relationship, or questions on how to do the “couple” thing the right way. I really like Harris’ idea of courtship, though it’s a bit different from the other things I’ve heard about courtship. I think that Harris’ way is the way I would like to go about my own relationship…..that I know WILL happen someday.
I think it must just come with the territory of being a young adult but I think about marriage a lot, and have a great desire to go about my future relationship in the right way. Lately though I’ve been feeling bad because I think about it more than i use to, but after reading this book I realized that I’m normal, and that I’m not some odd woman who is consumed with finding her husband.
Actually, after reading this book, I feel more excited for my future relationship, but also more content with waiting on God to bring the right guy along. In this book there are a lot of stories that show how amazing God’s timing is, and how perfectly He matches His children together. I guess that’s what I’m really excited about, and content on waiting for. I want to wait for the right guy and the right timing so that God can bless our relationship as freely as He wants to.
Past, Present, and Future
My first year at PBC has come to an end and as I look back I’m completely boggled by this. I was laying in bed last night talking with my totally awesome roommate about this. We agreed that it was so weird how when you’re in the midst of something challenging it seems like time is going by at a snails pace, but once the challenge is over, and you look back on it, it seems like time just flew by. This is a phenomenon that just amazes me. The whole concept of time doesn’t mesh well with my mind. I live in the present and it goes by so slow, but once the present becomes past it moves so quickly. And of course the future moves the slowest of all, that is until it becomes present, and then the future seems like it actually moved the fastest. (sigh) Time is just so hard to hold onto.
And then there is the whole issue of eternity that is impossible to grasp. Eternity past and eternity future. It totally freaks my brain out when I start thinking of such things. Time and eternity just don’t mesh with each other, and really don’t mesh with my brain.
When I was discussing with my roommate about how quickly time passes, I had a thought….perhaps the reason that time is so hard for us to wrap our brains around is because we are actually creatures who are not meant to stay in the grip of time. Someday we will no longer be bound by time, and then maybe we will finally comprehend it, or maybe it won’t matter enough to bother with thinking about.
As the curtain falls
It’s so weird that the end of the school year is here. I seriously feel like I just got here a couple of months ago. I’ve grown so much over this last school year that when I look back i barely recognize myself. I’ve had a couple of rough patches with school, and dorm life, but in the end I can say that I’m very glad that the school year has worked out the way it has.
At the risk of sounding cliche, it feels almost like this school year has been a dream. Ok, so right now I’m sitting in my dorm room in a miserably real way, melting in the heat, but it will be like a dream when I’m back at home in the routine of things.
I’ve really not been a huge fan of dorm life (I know that is largely because my room never cool off) but I am really going to miss having all my friends around me all the time. Last night was on my bed studying in and realized that I might not ever live in a dorm again. I fully intend on coming back to school next semester, but I don’t know if I will be living in the dorms or not. I don’t really want to do the dorms again, not to mention I can’t really afford it, but we’ll see how that pans out.
I’ve learned so much this school year; about myself, God, and the world I live in. I’ve changed so much that if I was at a different school I would be afraid I’d been brainwashed. Actually, I think my brain has been thoroughly washed and is now cleaner and clearer than it’s ever been. This past year I’ve made quite a few life goal and standards to live by; I’ve discovered what it is I want, and what it is I’m willing to wait for. Really this has been an AMAZING school year, and I’m so thankful for everyone who made this happen for me, ultimately all the glory goes to God though.
All this being said, I leave school with a bitter sweet heart, but I have high hopes for what God has in store for this summer, and next school year.
